NEW YEAR'S EVE.
holyshite, huh.
totally can't believe all the stuff i did this year, haha. when to europe, zomg; went for mission trip, tried a shitload of new stuff and made new friends and learned to love the old ones more and had a lottttttttt of first-times. but then,
i dunno. i'm happy. happier than ever and even though i know next year will be hella hard,
i think i beyond caring already. you know, just head straight first and face everything.
anyway, wrote this a while back on my other blog, but i think it's totally fitting now;
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had the oddest year, with so much ups and downs, all in rapid succession, and a lot, a lot of first-times for me. found out who my true friends are and who i love to bits. found out the people worth fighting for, and the ones who mean the world to me. found out the ones i'd die for and the ones i cannot live without.
i guess i really learnt a lot (mostly the hard way because life is mean).
i know i've made a few truckloads of mistakes this year but somehow i know i had to make them to learn from them.
i couldn't possibly find out from others, i guess i had to make them myself to find out.
the funny thing is that i don't regret anything at all, even though some really screwed me up badly. haha
if you know you are one of the ones who changed me in your own weird and funny way,
thankyou thankyou thankyou i want to hug all of your three times over.
the ones who wasn't afraid to unload on me, the ones who supported me relentlessly, the ones who put up with me, the ones who encouraged me, the ones who trusted me, the ones who weren't afraid to say what they thought, the ones who gave me hope, the ones who inspired me, the ones who made me cry, the ones who made me laugh till i cried, the ones who pulled me back everytime i tried to run away,
the ones who would never give up on me even after i gave up on myself.
i love you all so, so much.
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can honestly say i'm terrified of next year but i know it'll be okay.
but in any case, i'll be here always.
it's something that keeps me coming back no matter how many times i wanted to run
and tried to. because i've found out that i can't do it. i don't care if it's not supposed to happen now.
it's about me not being able to live without you.
but mostly, it's about stepping of the edge of a mountain and learning to fly on the way down.
don't you dare let it go.
bye, 2010 thanks for screwing up my life in the bestest way ever.
ah, whatever.
you should know, you guys made my year. xxx.
-gina.
run,
cut across the blue skies.
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